In SO far

Well i haven’t had any coffee. And I haven’t eaten out, even though I’ve had days off and it would be so friggin easy to just take a quick drive down to the burger place. I’m not feeling jittery like I was on the first though. But I’m sure it will come back.

Workout starts today. Cardio may be a bit longer in starting, just because I really don’t have great clothes to run in the rain with. Plus I want to go slow, get the workout established, then start running. I know, I’ve said that before, but this is a RESOLUTION damn it!.

I’m sticking with the workout I was doing last summer. It definetly builds you up and burns calories. and it usually only takes half an hour.

My car is still in limbo, waiting to see what the insurance says. Right now the best case option is looking like I’m going to have to pay the difference bewteeen what they will pay and what it costs to fix so that I can keep it and not have it be a salvaged title. This may end up costing me as much as a grand. But, I need my car. So oh well.

This on top of my big debt bill coming in the mail any day now. That’s also supposed to be a grand. I may soon be very broke.

Oh well, I will earn it all back.

 

 

End of 2010

2011 Resolutions
Learn Guitar : I’ve already got a jump start on this one. I bought an acoustic guitar and am learning from a course online.

No Fast food till 2012: Possible the most difficult task on this list. I am including in this all restutrants. No eating out at all for 365 days…..the biggest danger isn’t temptation, its just plain forgetting. VIGILANCE.

Get in shape: By this time next year I’d like to have no love handles at all. Ab’s would be nice too, butt im basically just wanting to be more active, and workout all year long. This includes cardio.

Pay off outstanding debts: All the stuff working against me on my credit report has got to go!

Move: I need to get out of this house. I want to wait untill my debts are paid off, but I need to move on. I’ve been here too long as it is. I am ashamed. Thank goodness I have a shit economy to blame it on.

Quit Coffee: Again, 365 days. Horrible

Its been a year since I decided to get a car, I did it. Since I decided to start Gardening. Im loving doing that. I believe that I can set goals and achieve them. Heres to an exciting new year and lots of success for me. And for everyone else whos working to better their lives.

Light it on fire

I hate everything so fucking much. I hate my brother, I hate living here. I hate my job, and my pay and all my thought of the future seem stupid. The idea that I’m going to have to keep getting up every day and LIVING makes me sick. Prolly another 50 years or more of this shit.

I’m sure I’ll feel better later, but right now, fuck all of it. And fuck you too.

Wow, I have a blog?

I switched shops, so I have to drive a lot farther to work. Also, the new place is very busy, so I work from open to close almost every work day. Thats why no updates.

189 pounds now. I’m not even trying. I just eat whatever and weigh myself. I blame the work.

Plants kicking major ass. Except for the fucking caterpillars and fungus eating everything. I got some sprays that killed the caterpillars. But that fungus is strong.

I want to move by my birthday. I’m making tons of money, so I should be able to. If I can fucking hold on to it. The temptation to buy a bunch of shit is hard to resist.

My girl got a job. So happy for her. But It does make it difficult to get together. Oh well.

 

This dude pays mexicans to wipe his ass for him.

I have few regrets. The way I look at it, I’m always trying to make the best choice I can. If it goes wrong, its not because I wanted it too. Im not big on blame either. Whats done is done. I can waste time bitching and pointing fingers, or I can learn the lesson and move on.
But goddamn it I hate all this loose skin all over me. I keep thinking I’m gaining weight again, but no, Im actually loosing it. The damn skin is just stacking up and making me look heavier.
And I know I’m not losing muscle. Not with my job.
Anyway, my new lowest weight is 190 on the dot. Thats from this morning. Fuck, I remeber 4 or 5 months ago when I was bouncing around between 205 and 208…..seems impossible that I could have lost 15 pounds in that amount of time. I feel terrible for people with office jobs or driving jobs or clerks……I really dont even have to work out. I spend 8 or more hours a day laying down, getting up, kneeling, getting up again. Lifting, streatching, twisting, bending, and using my upper body to crank down on things. Its a very physical job.
I remeber when I first started out. I was still huge, and I didnt have any muscle. Everyday was impossible. My joints ached and popped, my ankles swole up, my feet bleed and blistered and popped and bled again. What a nightmare.
But now, its routine. I don’t hurt much. In fact, if I sit too long, my ass and legs start to hurt. Im too used to standing and walking back and forth.
So let me take this oportunity to say: Hey you, asshole with a desk job! You think your better than me motherfucker? You make more money so all of a sudden I’m just a piece of shit blue collar loser? Well fuck you you fat corporate cocksucker! The only time you stand all day is to roll your sagging set of man tits over to the vending machine!
Whew, I feel better.

Pick your Favorites

Man, my plants are growing like it’s going out of style.

Some advice, if your growing tomatoes in cages, and you’re doing a good job, be prepared for them to outgrow the cages. Then the vines bend and they flop over, big hassle. I tied my vines to a fence next to the plant, but if you don’t have a fence, consider making the cage bigger by tying sticks to the top of it, then tie the vines to the sticks. Remember, loose knots. Don’t strangle your plant. Also, if your lower branches (the ones without flowers on them), die and turn yellow…..as far as I can tell that’s ok. I might be wrong, but so far it just seems to be a natural part of the deal. Anyone who knows different let me know.

Anyway, my squash plant has big ass yellow flowers on it, so hopefully in a few weeks I’ll have pictures of big beautiful squash to post. My cucumbers aren’t really doing so well. I think it’s because of the damn row pots. The things are just too shallow. I’m going to cut the bottom out of one and tie it to the top of another next time. Make a double deep row pot. Also, they don’t dry out as fast as a regular pot. So it’s easy to overwater.

Onions are doing well, but every time I thin them out, they just grow back. Gotta keep at it, or I won’t get any big onions. And the basil I got from Uncle G is finally finally kicking ass! Man I babied that stuff for months and got nothing. Half of it died! And his died too. His stuff never dies; guy is one big giant walking green thumb. But now I’ve got 4 that are almost big enough to harvest from. In a row pot too! Crazy how stuff works sometimes.

Lavender is my unicorn man. This is my fourth planting and it’s basically not growing at all. Must keep at it.

My beans are doing stellar! I’ll definitely have pics of those in a week or two.

Last, but not least, my upside down tomato plant has gotten huge. It’s got maybe 8 tomatoes growing on it. Sweet!

All in all, Gardening is one of my favorite hobbies. It’s very relaxing to go out and trim stuff, and tie it back, and pick some food and water…….I get all calm and happy. And the food is delicious and cheap.

Happy Planting.

Mismatched Nipples

Do you know why if you pick your nose a lot it seems to get tighter and tighter and require more picking? It’s because the tissues inside your nose get swollen from being picked at. Don’t pick your nose.

192 this morning! TA DA!!!! Just 3 more pounds and I’m in the 180’s! My love handles have never looked flatter. I honestly don’t know how much more weight I need to lose to be supa sexy. I was thinking 185, but that’s only 8 pounds away. Maybe 180? That I can believe.

Man, 180 pounds. People will be all, look at that skinny fuck over there. All tight and lean and muscly. I’ll bet you he has no idea what it’s like to be 95 pounds overweight. Asshole.

I’m an undercover fat guy, infiltrating the skinny fucks.

Of course, If I continue to work out, and I will, I can prolly look forward to being heavier than 180. Maybe 190? I don’t know. I know I don’t wanna be a bulky muscle dude. But my bone structure is kind of wide and squat, so no matter how much weight I lose, I always look kind of big. I just want my arms big enough to match my wide flat torso.

Martial arts, that’s my dream. One day, when I have enough cash and free time. Maybe boxing too. I’m all for peace and meditation, but I want to know how to wail on people too.

Also, loose skin fucking sucks! WHY GOD WHY!?

I also don’t hate my stretch marks anymore. Battle scars in the war on eating shitty food.

By the way, my new strategy to avoid shitty food is to only eat out (of the house) on the 15^th of the month. I recommend if you can that you immediately copy me in doing this.  Fast food is delicious evil. And if you need motivation for avoiding it, go to Wal-Mart and just look at people. Try to catch them eating, it won’t be difficult. You’ll leave your car there and jog home.

Seriously, have you been outside lately? Every other person is fucking huge! Everybody’s fat, right down to the little kids. I see more fat people than skinny people, and I live in California, where healthy culture is king. I just wanna run up to these kids and knock the ice cream out of their hand screaming; “don’t do it, you have so much to live for!”

I’m reading this book called Fast Food Nation. It came out in 2001, so the stats are 10 years old. The book is kind of a boring read, not a lot of humor or entertainment, but those numbers get you attention in a big way. Check it out, if you can.

Fuck your way to fitness!

194 this morning, but I look so FAT. I wonder if maybe the weightless is making my skin loose enough to bunch on itself, creating the illusion of fat rolls. EWWWWW.

Plants are doing amazingly good. I finally got a handle on how to fertilize. Lots of healthy growth occurring. I’ve wanted to take my laptop outside for some pics, but it’s kinda awkward.

Also work is going really great the last 2 weeks. Business is booming, and I’m making pretty decent money. Let’s hope this is the beginning of a long busy season.

UPDATE:

http://rkbp.wordpress.com/

Finally having ourselves some fun.

So now, in addition to the sexually charged stories of my question mark blog, we have a bit of poetry. I’m actually enjoying writing again. Who knew?

http://rkbp.wordpress.com/

No racy stuff on this blog, I promise.

Also, for those of you looking for the racy stuff. I didn’t post a link in my last update.

http://question0mark.wordpress.com/

There, that’s three blogs. All updating, semi regular.

News you can use…….bring tissues.

There is a new story I thought up taking shape at one of my other blogs. Be warned, its very mature content. But at least there isn’t any zombie on horse.

I think its going to be a three parter, with one or two half parts.  i like the first one, so i may actually finish it.